First Born

is there a more special bond between a parent and their first born? as compared to the 2nd or 3rd child?

i have 2 girls, both i love dearly. i don’t think i will practice favouritism in future lah. but whenever i sees my first born, i just have this feeling within me that i can’t describe with words. it’s like she is special.

i am also my parent’s first born. but seriously i don’t feel i am that special to my parents la.. just normal lor.

recently we just celebrated our 2nd girl’s 1st birthday. but the scale and excitement was not as great as the 1st girl’s party. why? are we tired already? or we don’t have enough time to prepare? or just something that is different we can’t describe?

i feel bad for my 2nd born. i will then do more to sort of compensate her. but why will i have this feeling to compensate? i can only say deep inside first born will always be first born. just like in the days of the old testament in the bible, the first born is different and will always get the double portion anointing and blessing. first born is always born when the parents are the strongest.

i don’t want to do things for my 2nd girl becos i have done it for the 1st. i want to do it becos i love her and i want to do it to make her happy.

the night is dark and late, maybe that’s why i am so emo now…

Names we call each other

I guess all of us have gone thru e stage where we give every single friend a nickname. Most of e time we will give nicknames to pple we either like or dislike. If that particular friend is just a hi-bye friend, why bother to nickname him, right?

I have all sorts of nicknames..
1. Kang Kong (cos my dialect name is Kar Keong n I am very skinny, this was a nick that stayed with me for all my primary sch days)
2. KK Hospital (again becos of my name, but this time it was also to suan me for being pretty close to e girls ard me in secondary sch days, my guy friends were jealous)
3. KK本笨 (given by Kless, why else, cos of my name, and also becos I started to call her 口木呆小姐. This is actually the best nick I had, cos our relationship then was 暧昧 n in such cases, any nick is sweet!)
4. 老大 (given by Kris when she was my pcgl, but it stayed n e rest started to call me that at times too. Even my staffs at work calls me that. As a guy, this nick is wonderful, cos it feeds my male ego totally, hahaaa)

Nicknames are fun as long as it doesn't hurt others too deeply. Sometimes nicks pull individuals closer, like sharing a private moment. Some nicks I have for friends...

米粉妹, Ah Heah (Serene Heah)
Gerald.com (Gerald Tay)
Ching ching (Peter Ching)
李小龙 (Bruce Lee Kok Siong)
Uncle Wei Wei (Ziwei)
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I like my girl with long hair

Today, this afternoon my ex-girlfriend is having her hair cut. It's a very expensive cut but becos of Nanz Inc, she is doing it for free.

As expected, the hairstylist says that her face is small n short hair suits her better. So e over shoulder length is gone. Replaced by a slightly over e ear length. Ooooohh! Heart pain ah!

Someone asked me why I like long hair. Of course long hair usually is more feminine la.. But I think e main reason is whenever my ex has short hair, she reminds me of her TKGS days. Now she is all grown up, mature n sexy, compared to those days when she is just a cutie pie.

I like my girl to have pony tail. So my style!
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my girls

finally able to use the camera (read my own canon camera!!)

took a few random photos of Joey n Jayne before dinner..

Joey took one of me

the usual self-taken dad n daughter (can you see that i am trying to keep her still with my head?)

What to do when you are waiting?

Waiting is a difficult thing to do...
Japanese = 待って
Korean = 잠깐 만요
Spanish = Esperar
Hebrew = חכה
Malay = Tunggu
Chinese = 等待

I am waiting for a call. I am waiting for a confirmation. I am waiting for a breakthrough.

What can I do in e meantime???

I pester all my good friends every morning!
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tonight we went back to the kopitiam that was near to last house i stayed before i was married. the food is okay, tho the famous chicken rice stall and fishball noodle are no longer there. but the feeling is so nostalgic.

after dinner, i took a stroll with Jayne. and just so naturally i walked towards my the flat i lived in for 16 years. with Jayne in my arms, the feeling is so warm, speaking softly to her, telling her this is papa’s old flat. this is where i grew up.

walked the familiar staircase. walked past the round stone table at the void deck, remembered a time when 1 friend came and met me there after he broke up with his girlfriend. we drank beer and he smoked.

went into the lift, ascended to the level so so familiar. stepping out into the common corridor, i saw myself in school uniform, slinging my bag, walking home after a tiring day in class.

walked past the exact flat. peeked in. the living room is quite messy, very different from how i remembered it to be. they have added a lift just outside the unit. things looked a bit different. in fact, it’s very different. the feeling may be there, but yet there is a sense of unfamiliarity.

i’m glad we have moved on. the future is going to be even better. cos i have my wife and 2 girls!

Happy Birthday Joey

today is Joey’s 4th birthday! we took the day off to bring her out. but 人算不如天算. Jayne is down with fever the moment we wake up to prepare for the day. haizz! so sorry baby! so so sorry Joey!! we will make it up to you again!

4 years is not a short time. that is 1460 days! that is the number of days my life has been transformed. i frequently wonder how blessed i am to have such a beautiful and clever daughter! girl, you have definitely changed my life forever!

a trip down memory lane

 

 

 

 

 

papa with Joey
 

Dear Joey,
Papa loves you very much! Forever I will be your hero and best friend! When you are tired, I will carry you. When you are upset, I will cheer you on. Just remember, papa will be there with you always!
Love Pa